Threw The Whole Fear Away

There’s power in knowing that you can say no, and then say yes, and then say no again. 

In the past I have been imprisoned by my no and felt shame when my no became a yes. 

Perhaps the first step is realising the control I have and the bounty in which I live. 

Fortunate enough that if I want it tomorrow, it will most likely be there tomorrow. And so I don’t need to have it all today. 

The problem is fear. 

Fear that I have no control over myself. 

Fear that I am not able to resist. 

Fear that I will blow up into a balloon. 

I ate my fears and expanded with them. 

I became what I feared

Fear did not help me

It tricked me 

So I’m throwing the whole fear away.

- O.F.P.