A Letter From Your Body

Dear Self,

I remember there were days you would look into the mirror and think “but I don’t look that bad, I am not that fat” but for some reason you never allowed yourself to accept me and the way I looked. 

I have been with you your whole life. With me you get from place to place. With me you hold things and feel things and touch things. With me you think. With me you jump. With me you laugh.  

But it seems that through all that my appearance has never pleased you. Even when you got to a point where you were feeding me nutritious foods, you remained so afraid of carbs that you went to eat chocolate because you were avoiding eating rice. 

You would go for long periods without eating and so after a point, to protect myself, I started storing more and more. The more you restricted, the more I stored when you binged. 

As you’ve come to this place now where you are finally getting serious about stepping out of the cycle. I want to tell you to trust me. I want to tell you to not be afraid. I want to tell you that we are so much more than the value judgements about size that society has placed on you and other people. 

We are healthy and we are strong. We love kickboxing and weight training. We do not like running. We love receiving gifts. We love to laugh and we love to be around warm, nice, positive people. There are so many things both of us will do together. Please let us enjoy the rest of our life without the baggage of feeling ugly or unworthy because of the size of dress I fit in. 

Please try not to let the brain washing of society get to a place where all you feel towards me is guilt, shame and disdain. Please appreciate me and all I do for you. When you want to eat, I am trying to tell you I need food. It is not the time to celebrate the hunger and cling on to it like a trophy. 

You are an entirely beautiful person. Let your environment work for you. Don’t abuse yourself into an unrecognisable person because of an accepted way that you “should” look. 

Also buy clothes that you look good in. Ignore the clothes you wear and you think meh or ugh. Your clothes are meant to work for you. not the other way round 

Most of all, be courageous. 

Be strong and be very courageous. 

Love,

Your Body

-O.F.P.